February
28, 2005
Warning:
I know how I am feeling - like its a good thing that I am single right
now because what person (of any gender identity) would want to have to
deal with dating someone who is wearing pink ALL THE TIME...the last person
I was dating seemed supportive - but its true I have been getting attacked
- and when it happened once on the street on my way to this persons house
and I walked in very sad I was told "Whatever, you should be used
to it by now..."
OK - yeah I am feeling down. Pink isnt helping - drugs and alcohol have.
I don't feel sexy right now in pink.I feel like a fucking freak.
Comments
Keep it up! I believe in what you're doing.
I hope things look up soon. I know it's tough sometimes, when you get
in a funk, especially in the winter...
Online hug-esque thing?
Cheers.
Posted by: Claire | March 01, 2005 at 08:58 AM
morty
i can't seem to acess your section on pink and the broken heart
it might help
take care and i miss you
_lee
Posted by: leopold | March 05, 2005 at 06:48 PM
February 27,
2005
what pink does to a broken heart
Pinkbrokenheart_1Pinkheartman it sucks to have a broken heart - and wearing
pink just makes it all worse - so to all of you who have recently broken
up with your significant others (or whatever you want to call them) this
piece of advice is for you - DONT WEAR PINK -February 27, 2005 | Permalink
Comments
hello morty its gnome (jennifer tinsley) how you been dawg? hope all is
well in the land of troll!!
Posted by: jenn | March 02, 2005 at 08:31 PM
February 27,
2005
lights out
hi there - massive hangover from partying all night -- and in the darkness
of the club nobody noticed i was in head to toe pink. Email me and say
whats up anytime - especially if you read this blog and have questions
about the project ---
transmorty@hotmail.com
over and not
morty
February 26,
2005
excessive pink feelings
HELLO! I hope you all still believe me that i am in fact still wearing
pink though i dont post massive amounts of photos up proving it -- trust
me -- i sometimes have a hard time reaching for those damned pink jeans
and pink t shirt -- but i do -- and i put it on -- and thankfully i have
been getting very little negative reaction -- could it be that the winter
snow has made everyone depressed -- too depressed to even yell at the
pink guy on the street -- well then yay winter depression!! i still get
this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach when i walk this one particular
part of Broadway near my house where i was attacked.. i imagine cars pulling
up behind me so i keep looking back ... its sort of sick actually -- but
thats what happened - a car came up and ...things were said - we dont
have to re-hash... look deeper in the blog if you want to know ... my
winter depression is - well its depressing -- but i am feeling better
today actually -- i just cant stand when i talk to my friends in san francisco
and they tell me how warm it was this week ... i miss the sun!! and also
mixing pink withPinkcomputer depression doesnt help - there are split
seconds of catching my own pinkness in a store window and feeling naseous...too
much fucking pink.
but this is all apart of this performance -- my promises seem empty but
i will soon be posting more photos... he he..
February 19,
2005
Russell Simmons in PINK
Russellpink1Russell Simmons wears TONS of pink. I have made a photo album
dedicated to this high pink profilin' guy....
Comments
Dear Morty, yeah, when you were at Rainbow, I know I told you I hate
pink. That was clearly my internalized misogyny talking, duh. Last night
I had a surprising dream in which I was dressed entirely in pink for some
(get this:) athletic event! in which I was going to take part. I had a
pink shirt, big clumpy pink boots, a pink skirt, I even had on tiny sparkly
pink shorts on under the skirt. Oh, and there was a monkey, of the usual
non-pink variety.
Thought I'd share that with you.
I was really truly super glad to see you. Let us know next time you're
in town. The clown says hi. Posted
by: Jenny | February 20, 2005 at 11:58 PM
February 19,
2005
the pink jerkoff fantasy
i love pink. no literally i think i am falling in love. i woke up with
a slight hangover today after a long night out with my friend Andres.
A good way to ease the headache from a night of drinking is do a bit of
jerking off - so thats what i did in the early afternoon. I closed my
eyes and went through the usual files of masturbatory images I keep at
hand but then something strange happened. I started to imagine myself
in this ornate pink fantasy world. It was a bedroom that was covered in
lush pinks, pink crushed velvets and pink feather pillows. I started to
jerkoff to the thought of being overcome with the feeling of what it would
be like to be in that room. In the fantasy I was barenaked but with pink
silk sheets and pink pillows covering me, a pink wall mounted fan churning
the air around me. What Would Freud Say?
Well when you think about it I do want to go fuck something pink.....
I also love walking - and I am trying not to take it for granted. I am
missing a few toes on my right foot and as I was walking around today
I was thinking how lucky I am to be able to walk without any help. So
for now I am mr. pink walking (well right now blogging) and feeling the
energy of the day - its positive!
February 17,
2005
Festival high
I promise to be more regular with posts - right now i am in deep work
mode. Which is great for me actually. Working hard makes me satiated.
I think it makes most people fulfilled. Right now I am in charge of all
the final programming for the mix festival - its a lot of work. but after
all is said and done there will be one beautiful April week where we will
reap the benefits. Lots of parties are being planned - and the festival
has a lot to offer this year..including some great performance nights
that I am putting together.
Ok here is a quick review of my life in pink:
Stares: hard stares that burrow deep into me - why are you so sad that
you need to take it out on the guy in pink...lighten up! (I am repeating
this to myself too by the way)
Laughs: the teenage mind is built specifically to target the likes of
me. I get a shoulder shoved into me. I cannot be bothered by this anymore...but
I am.
The happy times are coming:
I get various emails from people who tell me they really like this performance
piece. I realize its not just my sister who is reading this blog. This
public forum thing is still new to me.
I have intense discussions with people about the performance but feel
too lazy to type it all when I get a moment to blog. I am going to try
and fix that.
I put on my pink outfit knowing that it will make someone smile just a
easy at it will make someone sneer.
Comments
morty!!!
it makes me so happy to be able to see you all in pink. thanks for the
pictures! being so far it was hard to imagine how it was all going. lighten
up indeed!! you look fabuloso in pink.
Posted by: amelia | February 18, 2005 at 10:19 AM
February 12,
2005
A spot of brown on a pink scarf....
Hello
well lets see... i went to vassar college on thursday to present my movie
Trannyfags. i was introduced to an amazing magazine that they produce
on campus called Squirm. it could rival porn mags like on our backs but
it just happens to be published by students - the photos were super hot!
the articles were great and the students i met there that make Squirm
were smart, fun, and yeah very sexy!
i got to talk a bit about my year in pink, porn, and trans positivity.
-well thats all for now....
--morty
Comments
We loved having you!
Since you left I have been thinking a lot about the terms you used to
describe the people in your film. And the more I think about it, the more
I like 'transman' and 'non-transman'. It is very hard to find descriptors
that are not offenive and degrading ie. 'real' or 'bio' man. Non transman
is great because it totally turns around the situation, defining everything
around transness. So I just want to say that I love the term because I
didn't say that while you were at Vassar.
Posted by: lindsay | February 13, 2005 at 01:01 PM
February 09,
2005
new and improved
whats new and improved is my attitude - damn it i refuse to be feeling
like shit just because i am wearing pink! today i renewed my tennis shoes
- basically re- spray painting them - they look hot again - and i dyed
some white jeans pink - ok its all back back back! there is a compliment
down one street and a nasty look down the other! i changed my facial hair
too - its like long sideburns instead of a huge beard (I had been growing
it for almost a month) but i thought i would need to look neater for my
presetation at Vassar (tomorrow) so i cut it off -- do sideburns scream
fag! i know pink does (to all the narrow minded assholes in nyc)
whatever - i dont care! i love this color so much i will not let the negative
dismay me!
i got this email from a student in canada studying performance art - she
wants to interview me for a report she has to write or something like
that -- i just realized i never posted on this blog my artist statement
on this blog-- must do that tomorrow...
wearing any sort of fun outfit is the way to go!! why not everyone thats
reading this blog get out some funky oufit - i personally am into outfits
of monocromatic head to toe color (try green!) - tomorrow and wear and
see how it feels - i mean its fun and its also kinda scary isnt it? thats
the whole point! to make a statement but also to have some fun visuals
in life - imagine for a second if everyone on the earth wore gray - now
dont get me wrong gray is a perfectly wonderful color but what if thats
all you saw people wearing day in and day out. that would stink right?
but people seem to shy away from color...that makes me sad...
so whats in your closet?
try BLUE, ORANGE, PINK!, YELLOW, GREEN, RED....make it exciting and then
send me some photos and i will upload them to my blog.
alright well -- yours in pinkness
mortakai
Comments
I just got back from your presentation here at Vassar! I'm the one
who complimented you on the swing scene, and your stature.
On days when I want to be colorful, I try to wear as much ORANGE as I
can. There's something highly pleasing about the color orange, for me.
Posted by: Claire | February 10, 2005 at 09:07 PM
Hey, i also saw
your presentation at vassar
while i can't say i enjoyed the porn very much, i admired your stories
of putting it together and found the presentation to be very informative.
I'd say I was pretty naive about transfags beforehand, and watching transfag
porn was probably not the best opener... but it at least made me appriciate
that everyone should be able to find porn, even under representated groups
in America.
Thanks so much for coming, and i love your year in pink idea. i'll pass
the word along. ;)
-Becca
(the kid who asked the blooper question)
Posted by: Becca | February 11, 2005 at 12:42
PMChristo and
Jeanne-Claude's GATES are opening in Central Park tomorrow. What better
day to try monochrome than the day the park turns saffron?! I am so excited
it is going to be so beautiful. it makes me feel lucky to be alive when
people do art projects. in general. i have nothing saffron, otherwise
i would try to match the park... i also like matching Mr. Pinky.
"if you're going to fight -clash!"
-robin williams as a fashion consultant in Good Morning Vietnam
Posted by: sady | February 11, 2005 at 06:39 PM
February 09,
2005
wait
wait! read on! there is so much interesting stuff -- or are you distracting
yourself from work by reading my blog??
February 09,
2005
Me and Mikey photos
If you go to the photos section there is a new photo book called Me and
Mikey - thats my sisters new kid Michael - which makes me a brand new
uncle.
more soon!
bye!
-morty
February 08,
2005
Hows everybody doing?
nothing is happening today with me so this post will be short -- i am
gearing up for a presentation of my movie Trannyfags at Vassar college
-- other than that i am still wearing pink -- but have been inside most
of the day working ...
ok bye
morty
February 07,
2005
Helloo
Hi
So you want to know whats new in the life of one pink ass transman..?
Well not much - i have been having many fantasies about what my first
public pink performance piece will be ... if the weather was nice i could
do some sort of outside performance --
i think i will do an outside performance... soon.. maybe the end of feb
beginning march.. more on that soon i guess
i have dreams of in the summertime doing a "PINK IN" at the
park where everyone shows up wearing pink and doing little performances
and just hanging out - that would be an amazing sight -- that will have
to wait until it becomes park weather..
i had my first pink party on saturday and it was cozy (read:small) but
everyone wore pink and that was fun - i know i know photos soon as i always
say but i have to get my photos developed first (no digital camera yet...
but its getting to be super annoying at this point to not have one..anyone
want to mail me one..?) i made pink cupcakes and some friends brough pink
wine coolers and around midnight the pink pinata got smashed..
now i am just thinking - today is a thinking day for me -- pink --- pink
-- the color pink and how i am relating to it -- in need of pink pants
-- still looking forward to the rest of the year and getting comfortable
in this color -- beginning to try to understand just how far i want to
take this performance -- trust me after the mix festival is over i will
be putting a lot more effort into this ... but for now it is still a performance
- it still happens everyday -- i even have now been wearing pink to bed
so its pretty much a 24 hour piece ...
ok more later as always...
yours in pinkness
-morty
February 04,
2005
Paaarrteeee!
Dude! The Pink Party is gonna be a blast - hope you all can make it tomorrow!
1083 Broadway - take J train to Kosciousko Street
I have brand new pink outfits - ANNNDDD i bought a pink doo rag! oh my
outfit is HOTTTTT.... of course photos I PROMISE! I'm making my whole
house into a pink paradise including (are you ready for this!) a pink
unicorn pinata! YES! A PINK UNICORN PINATA! lots of great music, pink
cupcakes and me getting drunk i'm sure...
--mortyyyy
February 03,
2005
new photo -
look in the photo section for a funny photo a friend sent to me - its
called funny band photo
....a band named FLYING.
-mort
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uhoh, the photo of flying lopped off two member to the right and left.
they are playing a show tomorrow in red hook.
Posted by: Sady Sullivan | February 03, 2005 at 10:53
PM
I just fixed that
....
Posted by: morty | February 05, 2005 at 02:49 PM
February 03,
2005
Does it matter if I am inside all day?
I am working literally nonstop on the Mix Festival -- i am sitting here
dressed in all pink and wondering if it means anything when nobody gets
to see me...? As you can see I am feeling better today -- I really need
to get my ass to the thrift store to get more pink clothing -- i somehow
destroyed a pair of pink jeans and am down to only one pair! How many
of you out there can wear the same pair of pants for weeks on end? I can!
Matter of fact i can probably go months with just one pair of pants -
i also dont know if i should buy a pair of already pink shoes -- i spray
painted my hightops pink and the thing is they start to rub off after
a few weeks -- i saw this pair of pink tennis shoes at some store - they
are for girls -- but i dont care - maybe i will get them but as you can
see i hate to buy new stuff - i rather buy stuff used -- nobody has sent
me pink gear!!! there were many promises! i want to put a fun link in
this so lets see
... i am so computer illiterate! i will do it later
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