October 22, 2005
it's 3am - I need to get a move on. my plane leaves in four hours. not sure if i will be blogging on my trip but i will try. look through all the lovely archives if you're hankering for some pink drama.
xxxwill be back Oct. 30th
xoxoxmorty

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You seem so much happier these days! Hope you're well. Just got back from a fam visit myself and it was nice to be in some sun. Hope it does you well. XO R
Posted by: Ruthie | October 26, 2005 at 12:20 PM

October 20, 2005
HEEB!
This has been an amazing month of media attention for me. First the Village Voice best of came out and then last night Heeb Magazine has a huge party for the new sex issue, and I happen to have a nice little write up and cute photo in there. The party was raucous and fun. I hang out with my good friend Jamye Waxman who is also in the issue and I am being introduced to all her hot Jewish girlfriends. I take one look at Jayme and mention to her how her glasses make me hot and one of her friends gives me a funny look, then turns to me and asks "Are you straight?"
I give an emphatic "Yes!"
and she replys "Well how am I to know you're wearing so much pink!"
It was kind of funny actually.
No phone numbers though. Oh well.
Then I headed to The Cock for the Butt Magazine party and let me tell you if I were a fag this would have been my fantasy. A packed room full of the cutest gay men in nyc.
I drank free Red Stripe and stood in a corner admiring all the well dressed, hairy chest action.
No phone numbers there either.
xxxmorty

October 19, 2005
I am going away for a week on a family trip starting on Sat. Many are asking if I will be wearing head to toe pink while hanging out with the fam on some sunny island and the answer is hell fucking yes i am!
my family knows me as one eccentric human being. i make porn, im a tranny, i wear head to toe pink, and i've got eight fingers and nine toes. i would say all of this adds up to one strange person...but in fact i'm not all that strange....well ok just a little bit.
what i am is someone who never fit and will never fit into any mold.
many things i do with my life are because i ask myself "is that all there is?"
a lot. nine to five aint gonna cut it. i really need to make stuff, be creative all of the time or i feel a strange compulsion toward depression. i suppose its that i am meant to figure something out while i am here on this earth. i have worked for a sex toy store for 2 years, one of the longest jobs i have ever had, because i find the environment mentally stimulating. and i work with mostly women, and i like that a lot.
so back to the vacation...i will try to post while i am away but i cant make any promises. all i can say is i will have plenty of family photos where one guy in pink will be smiling from ear to ear.
xxmorty

October 18, 2005
are you happy? this morning is cold. i am cooking oatmeal.

i am just days away from my 30th birthday. i have so much to think about, so much i still have to accomplish. i'm just in deep thought mode today.
hope everyone has a good day, stay warm, drink lots of tea, wear your favorite sweater to work.
xxmorty

October 17, 2005
I feel like Clark Kent coming out the train station but there are some days where I simply cannot handle the bullshit on the train coming into Manhattan so I am wearing my "normal clothes"
Until I get out of the J train Canal Street station, and as soon as I'm on the street I pull my blue pants off to expose the pink one beneath. I have a dark colored sweater and that comes off as well exposing the bright pink one underneath.
This is more fun than I've had in a long time watching people gawk as I become Mr. Pink Man on Canal St.

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Hee. That sounds great.
Posted by: Claire | October 18, 2005 at 08:45 AM

October 16, 2005
today:

I am hanging out with my friend Mikey and we hit the grocery store for some dinner fixins. The check out girls are so excited to see me one of them says "Is pink your favorite color?" and even though it isn't I say "Well, yes!"
Then the checkout girl behind me interjects. "I love pink!"
and then the two of them banter back and forth on all the colors they love best while Mikey and I just stand there and smile. Mikey turns to me and says "You get this a lot?"
and I tell him I do. There is nothing like giving people something to smile about especially people who are at work.
Last night at a bar I meet some guy who notices my pink and begins his own tirade of his favorite colors only his colors are associated with some sports team. Orange and red. The Mets? The Cardinals? Well, it doesn't matter the point is he yells out while pointing to his jacket (of said sports team) "this is it baby! Red and orange!"
He was wasted. His girlfriend kept saying "Honey, you don't need to get in this mans face." I was in Long Island City. I walked underneath this huge Pepsi Cola sign with the red of the neon covering my face, it was so beautiful.

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This post makes me really happy.
Posted by: Claire | October 17, 2005 at 01:07 AM

October 15, 2005
top five

last night
top five things I think about while wearing pink:
1. figuring out what shade of pink looks best on me (pastel or neon pink)
2. being aware of the places I really should NOT wear my pink outfit (I take with me a pair of dark pants for these occasions)
3. accepting the fact that most of the time women will think I am a big flamer
4. learning to love myself and others more
5. learning that life cannot be lived with fear being the primary emotion that leads you to do, or not do, things.
I am sitting here in my cozy bed and thinking of the times I had turned around and walked away from something because fear had taken hold of me.
I am learning now how to control that emotion and how to fit boldness into my life
Its a lot like being able to hit on someone only when you're drunk. Without the alcohol there would be no courage. But I have stopped using alcohol and drugs as a tool to be more courageous. I think I started to wear pink
to see different ways to communicate with people. This has been the year of touching peoples lives with this project, its really awesome actually. I wish more people made more of an effort to communicate to strangers here in new york city. So often everyone feels closed off from each other, walking around with scowls on their faces. I know I can be like that too, as a defense mechanism, but I wonder how much of these walls I really need.
I hope when this performance ends I make a more conscious effort to incorporate smiles and good gestures for strangers in my city.

October 14, 2005
there may not be any photo today because I didnt bring a camera along with me to work but I am in fact wearing a gorgeous pink outfit.
Not much to report. Again it is a rainy day so people are less apt to stare and make comments. Indoors now, at work, my co-workers are happy the pink is back. I am sure I can get through this and not just get through it but enjoy the last moments of this year in pink.
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moooooortyyyyyyyy
will you ever write to me again???
check this out: (most of it in spanish, but some of it in english, this girls are AMA zing)
www.girlswholikeporno.com
love you,
amelia.
Posted by: amelia | October 14, 2005 at 03:07 PM

October 13, 2005
best of new york!
heh heh, so i feel like a real new yorker! i got nominated as part of the village voice best of nyc here is the blurb
in other news its raining and nobody cares that i am in head to toe pink! when nobody bothers me i feel really delightful in pink. gay. joyous. full of vigor!

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Yay! I've been thinking of you and it was a nice surprise to see that you've decided to keep up with it. Now if I could only see your pink self around...Very proud of you, Mister. XOR
Posted by: Ruthie | October 14, 2005 at 12:48 PM

October 12, 2005
the beginning of the end of the year in pink
Officially I am now calling the performance The End Of Pink. I kinda have to if I want to feel any sort of sanity around wearing pink till the end of the year.
So here goes. Everyday until the end of December I will take at least one photo of what my life is like in pink. Photo number one: me in my room (my pink shoes are at work) The other photo is my altar that I have in my room as a sort of pink guidance. I put a bottle of testosterone on it, my grandmothers candle holders, my horses, a picture of Frida Kahlo and
an ink drawing of a heart with two long scars - oh there is also a baby tooth of mine on it, and some coins (for prosperity, I guess) --
slow and steady till the end. xoxo

October 12, 2005
yesterday black, today pink
Can't fight it. I have too much already invested to stop wearing it..so today with much fear and dread I put on my pink jeans and a pink sweater and went outside to take the trash out. It's raining today. There isn't a soul outside. So I walk to the supermarket. Still nervous. Sometimes when I wear pink I feel like I should be walking into a music video from the 80's - like I belong as one of the background singers for The Buggles or something. But this is Brooklyn, not a sound stage, and I feel the slick streets underneath my feet and wonder if this gray day can handle a guy in head to toe pink.